What is your dream?

Dreams have been on the mind a bit lately. The thoughts started after a random comment by a friend when I asked if they would ever buy the gorgeous house they were renting if given the opportunity. He answered with "maybe, but it's not our dream you know? We want some land"

It took me by surprise because I have gotten so used to living in the moment, getting though each day, week, month, year and in a bid not to overwhelm myself have deliberately only been looking at the next step in front of me rather than focusing on the top of ladder.   It has been a long time since I have entertained the idea of a long term goal or dream.

So I'm pondering all this on the 6 hour drive Marcus and I made this weekend up to Auckland where we went to hear Bear Grylls talk. This guy is a legend and I was so inspired with the way he chooses to live his life. And there it was again, a quote on the big screen before Bear repelled down from the ceiling
Choose a job you love and you will never have to work another day in your life. 

I sat there picking at my Kathmandu bag with it's slogan live the dream and I thought,  so what is it? what's my dream? If I could do anything with my life, what would it be? What when I come to die, would I wish that I had done? 

Big questions and I don't have the answers yet. Is it weird not to have a dream?

We only took Nathan up with us so I wasn't dreading the drive home as much as I normally do with 3 kids and their noise in the car. Instead while our little one year old cooed, gaaaaed and slept, Marcus and I talked, and talked and talked, uninterrupted and we thrashed some ideas around. He is in the process of getting ready to return to work and we are wary not to get back on the same treadmill that flipped us off all those months ago in Feb. So I asked him...."What is your dream?" "What is a job you would love?" "In 10 years, what is it that you want to have achieved." 

He shared that what he has learnt this year is that life is about experiences. That there is no point working your butt off for money or investment if you are not living along the way. For a long time Marcus had a goal of becoming rich, the business and it's success consumed him. I'm thankful that has gone and that if we never have more than we have now, that he is happy with that, thankful for that.

I realised that so much of my goals were wrapped up in a house. Whether it was finishing what we had planned for his one, or where I saw us living if we sold. I am materialistic and boy oh boy can I spend a tonne of hours and energy over houses. When all said and done, it's a house where living is supposed to take place not the living based around. How sad that my dreams have been limited to a house.

Anyway, like I said, there has been a lot of pondering happening in this little head. Unlike Bear, I have no desire to climb Everest but I must have a dream in there somewhere so I'm out to find it.